Wednesday, 17 August 2011

rollercoaster 1

The past few years have been a rollercoaster ride I have been chained to the wind, towed to all directions wow I cant believe I made it back *chuckles*

 I'd always judged my girlfriends when they made decisions based on emotions rather than fact, I'd fail to uderstand why they dont see things the way a third person with no personal interest in the matter does... but I get it now, I don't have the word for it but I've experienced it
I once met someone...

He displayed characteristics of a dog, the most reckless breed there is and naturally my first instinct was RUN!!!! because of my ever intense desire to be on the know I didn't run, I had interest in knowing if men who openly say they are "dogs" are infact dogs, because many show up as other things but turn out to be......dogs! I stayed and what do you know... he really was what he said he was, but one with a BIG heart I uncovered.. now that got things complicated...
My mind was still on the wild animal but my heart took a different turn, my friends tried so hard to open my eyes to the facts I already knew, it was a lot harder to run now it felt like I'd have to carry a suitcase, heavy with questions and experiences and emotions and I ask myself why I stuck around to let things tangle up like that...

Eventually God spoke sense to me, in a way only He can... there's nothing I regret only lessons learned!

I'll leave it there!