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The past few years have been a rollercoaster ride I have been chained to the wind, towed to all directions wow I cant believe I made it back *chuckles*

 I'd always judged my girlfriends when they made decisions based on emotions rather than fact, I'd fail to uderstand why they dont see things the way a third person with no personal interest in the matter does... but I get it now, I don't have the word for it but I've experienced it

I once met someone...

He displayed characteristics of a dog, the most reckless breed there is and naturally my first instinct was RUN!!!! because of my ever intense desire to be on the know I didn't run, I had interest in knowing if men who openly say they are "dogs" are infact dogs, because many show up as other things but turn out to be......dogs! I stayed and what do you know... he really was what he said he was, but one with a BIG heart I uncovered.. now that got things complicated...

My mind was still on the wild animal but my heart took a different turn, my friends tried so hard to open my eyes to the facts I already knew, it was a lot harder to run now it felt like I'd have to carry a suitcase, heavy with questions and experiences and emotions and I ask myself why I stuck around to let things tangle up like that...

Eventually God spoke sense to me, in a way only He can... there's nothing I regret only lessons learned!

I'll leave it there!

Pink Happiness

What dimmed spotlight?

I was inspired by the inexalted smarts and visionaries sorrounding me to give my blog the title "The dimmed spotlight". These are people who are so quick on the trigger, brilliant and cut out for the Spotlight, remarkable attributes are deserving of apreciation BUT will anybody else take the time to listen? flash on? note? the brilliancy I observe every passing day? I don't scout for talent or super duper people, No by no means but I admire people who put to use the gifts that God has freely given to all...


I have only recently come to grasp that each and everyone of us has some contribution to make in the various areas we are gifted in, BUT not all of us will get to experience the good feeling (assuming its good) of that beam of bright light projecting directly on our "greatness" others spotlights will be dim, for some that will be the consequence of being too lazy to develop their potential, others perhaps are still in the wait for their "break" and others are just destined to be under the dimmed spotlight, not because their output is less important but simply because not everyone's destination is at the center stage, many will only get to display their specialties before a small number maybe because they will be most effective unilluminated. What is important is for you to serve your purpose, SMALL or GREAT because if you don't, your role in your realm will be abandoned, nobody will do it for you, most importantly nobody can do it as well as you!

This awakening has left me tongue tied and excited all at once, excited to know that the day I triumph in draining every ounce of potential in me and making the MOST of it, under dimmed or bright LIGHTS... my BEST will be enough...